When the mania is high, I struggle with anxiety that comes creeping in like a fog. It sneaks up on me and causes me to feel dread. The overpowering sensation of being stopped at a red light and hearing the car behind you closing in with brakes squealing and no chance of stopping before it hits you. That sinking feeling in your stomach that means doom is on the horizon and there is not a darn thing you can do to stop it.
My doctor does not believe in treating anxiety or dread with medicine. He says I must face that it is simply an unpleasant sensation that comes with my disease. I really do not want medicine for it, as I have been down that path and it led to a deeper depression. So I tend to agree with his advice.
Yet, there is something so humorous about telling me that I must accept it as part of my disease. He usually doesn’t call my schizoaffective/bipolar a disease. Like I caught it from being too close to another bipolar person. I tend to avoid school children during the winter months with their runny red noses and sticky hands, but I didn’t think to stay away from bipolar people.
Those darn bipolar germs are tough!
There are some things antibacterial gel and wipes just does not do a thing for.
I hope that your anxiety is not overwhelming you in this weekend with hectic last minute plans crammed into the short two days off. Here it is hectic, but I have not been swamped with the feeling of dread, thankfully. A little apprehensive and skittish yes, but dread-filled and jittery, no. It has been a good week with a lot of writing, a lot of noisy family members, and new blog posts.
It has been a very good week. How was yours?
How do you deal with overwhelming feelings and hypersensitive nervous reactions? I would love to know some tips and tricks for dealing with them. Comment below and share!